One Tree

Written April 12, 2009

My nothing is a little something to everybody else
And all I’ve got is myself

Never knew anyone cared
Been comfortable in my burning chair
Where no heat can touch me
‘Cause cold is how my heart was meant to be

But the rain can wash away the degrees
From which I feel the heat
‘Cause love is more powerful than the mind
When you’re trying to come back to life

If all but one tree were cut down
Could you hear it cry?
If you were the only one around
Would you mind?

‘Cause I’m too tired
I’m too sad
I’m too tired
To give a damn

White walls ain’t no way to escape my head
And the weight of my mind can’t be held up in bed
Not even your hands could lift it this long
Anyway, soon enough, you’ll all be gone

It’s just me, one tree
Can’t you see that it’s just me?
Not we, only me
Now leave it up to me

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From My Arms

Written April 12, 2009

There are lights
So many lights
On this star-lit night
Full of wondrous life

I’ll be right behind you
Everything will be okay
There’s no need to cry
Everything will be okay

It’s hard to see passed what’s falling
I don’t even wanna blink
Maybe it’ll help if I call on
Just one or two more drinks

There are lights
Too many lights
On this star-lit night
Full of wondrous life

What’s that supposed to mean
What are you trying to tell me
I can’t do this on my own
What are you trying to tell me

Don’t take the babies from my arms
She’s too little for me to let go, let go
Don’t take her to the cold
Don’t take her to the cold
He’s too little for me to let go, let go
Don’t take him to the cold
Don’t take him to the cold

These balloons are the hues of the blues in the night
The ocean of color brings wonder of life
The past and the present and the future of you
How I’ll never get to see the things that you’ll do

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Let Go

Written January 19, 2009

I’m squeezing tight with all my might
I don’t want to lose those memories
I’ve got to fight for what’s right
I just want to replace you, please

The waves are many
The waves are high
That’s not water on my face
It’s tears in my eyes

I’m letting go of all I’ve held on to
I’m letting go of these memories of you

You can have ’em, you can keep ’em
You can throw ’em away
But never again will they be part of my day

Someone needs to be where you left off
And put the pieces aside
Someone needs to be where you left off
And put the pieces aside

And when the new wave breaks onto the sand
I just wanna have the will to stand
On my own two feet
And walk this crowded beach

I’m letting go of all I’ve held on to
I’m letting go of these memories of you

You can have ’em, you can keep ’em
You can throw ’em away
But never again will they be part of my day

With all the sleepers around me now
I’ve got to wake them up some how
Get them on their feet
Walking this crowded beach with me

Let go, my friends
Let the suffering end
You’ve got to
You’ve got to
You’ve got to
You’ve got to let life begin

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Holes

Written June 12, 2008

All I ask
Is that someone tell me what’s going on
Someone tell me what’s going wrong
‘Cause I seem to be falling apart

Why, oh, why
Do I feel the need to put holes in my wall
Then rearrange the posters to cover my faults
It’s too bad they can’t cover the holes in my heart

But I feel change
A new leaf is turning over
And I’m starting over

These holes are no longer my crazy dreams
These holes are the clouds of the seven seas
They are places filled with exotic trees
As far as the
I can see the light
Shining through the canopy, all over me
It’s directing me down that righteous path
Before I feel the impact of our lifeless crash

These holes became trees to please my disease
And I feel the breeze of the seven seas
But those trees just look as lonely as me
They need a new look to show some feeling

Let’s paint the trees black and blue
For the memories of what I had with you
Forgetting you is the simple part
But my head doesn’t always agree with my heart

But I’m painting them, these beautiful trees
Forget black and blue, I will do what I please
It’s just me, the trees, and the clouds of the seven seas
And that’s all there is as far as the
I can see the light
Shinning through the canopy, all over me
It’s showing me the path to a better world
A new life, bigger dreams, and a better girl

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Middle Name

Written June 03, 2008

You had this mood about you
An attitude about you
I didn’t know quite what it was
Until you started flapping your gums

It was either this or that
I think I heard a “you are fat”
But then it all became clear
The reason you were chewing my ear

You asked, “Do you even know what I’m speaking of?”
I said, “At this point it’s all the same”
You asked, “Do you even know how to love?”
I said, “Baby, ‘love’ is my middle name”

And then your eyes got big
I thought it looked quite sick
But I just smiled at you
Oh, the way you love that I do

You couldn’t help hold back
But then I heard a smack
You didn’t find it funny
Not even when I called you honey

You asked, “Do you even know what I’m speaking of?”
I said, “At this point it’s all the same”
You asked, “Do you even know how to love?”
I said, “Baby, ‘love’ is my middle name”

Then you said try again
I thought this had no end
I knew that you weren’t lying
When I saw that you were crying

I tried to wipe your eyes
And brush away the lies
But then you fell into my chest
How did I become so blessed?

You asked, “Do you finally know what I’m speaking of?”
I said, “At this point I truly do”
You said, “Do you have anything to say about love?”
I said, “Baby, just that I love you”

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Memories

Written April 30, 2008

Every day is harder, than the day before
Mornings are colder, without your head on my chest
If I could start over, I’d feel so blessed

I take out a bill, when I’m at the store
I see a note, of a purplish hue
There’s a heart on it, and it says ‘I Love You’

Everywhere I stop, everywhere I go
There are memories of us
Angels in the snow
Everywhere I run, everywhere I hide
There are memories of us
In the leaves outside

Today I heard our song, it was hard to ignore
I thought about the times, we would sing every word
Your voice was the most beautiful thing, that I’d ever heard

I still wear the hair band, that you always adored
I remember the day, I took it off your wrist
‘Cause it was the same day, we shared our first kiss

Everywhere I stop, everywhere I go
There are memories of us
And uncooked cookie dough
Everywhere I run, everywhere I hide
There are memories of us
Down the twisting slide

I’m looking at the ring, that you slipped on my finger
It’s bronzing a little, but it’ll always be mine
No matter the wear and tear, it’s still perfectly fine

Remember the scarf, that I spun ’round your neck?
Red, blue and polka dots, you called it your favorite
It almost blew away, but I managed to save it

Everywhere I stop, everywhere I go
There are memories of us
That little creek flow
Everywhere I run, everywhere I hide
There are memories of us
Laughing ‘til we cried

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